Chowder and Tears

Hello readers - it's been awhile, hasn't it? I haven't had much to say because my life has been peaceful...and I've even been in a "healthy" relationship! It's amazing, isn't it?

Sadly, I come to you with bad news. That "healthy" relationship got sick and died over the weekend.

Before I get into it though, and share this little morsel of pain, I should give you a back story.

I work for a large international company. About two months ago I thought I'd look at see if there were any interesting openings. There was! I put in my resume, not thinking it would really go anywhere. However, I have made it through the process! Part of the deal, though, is that I needed to fly out to headquarters and visit the team...as it will be required of me to move out there.

I am so excited!

Last week I hopped on a plane and flew to the East Coast for the job. I was floored by the food, people, ocean, and everything else. My heart was full.

Prior to the trip, I know that John was having difficulties in his own position and was looking for an "out." He'd submitted his resume to multiple places but hadn't had much luck. Poor guy. I figured that I was ready to take our relationship to the next level and I had told him that assuming I got the position, I'd be his "sugar momma" until he landed a good job out there...with me.

He declined but promised to look for work out East so he could join me.

Things were lovely...until I texted him Friday night to let him know I was sitting down to a bowl of chowder and enjoying my time out there. He dropped a huge shit bomb on me. He decided he was moving back West and wouldn't see me again.

So that was that. Over my fucking chowder. On a business trip.

I really just don't get it.

I'd say that it's got to be a Midwest thing, but I doubt that's the case. I think it's a guy thing...more specifically, a spineless, weak, lacking-in-confidence, guy thing. And somehow, they are always attracted to me.

Le Sigh...onwards and upwards...at least out East I'll be able to be miserable with a bowl of clam chowder....

Ta!